Just Simply Jen

A few years ago I wouldn't have cared. I was a night person easy. A few months ago, four hours of sleep a night would have been more than enough. Apparently all of that has changed greatly because I'm a freaking zombie. Oh well. At least I haven't been cranky.
I've been talking to my husband a lot the past few days. Not really talking at the same time, but doing a lot of leaving messages and emails for eachother. It has been really awesome and we have some pretty great communication going. We have had some really intimate discussions. I have always had to drag his thoughts concerning intimacy out of him, but lately they are pouring out of him. Today he told me he needed me bad. I don't know what it was about him saying that, but it got to me. I mean trust me, I need him like crazy, but I never expected to hear him say that. If I was honest, he could find someone there to relieve his frustration. I'm sure he could, but he doens't want to. He needs me..to me that implies more than just sex. That just got to me and as much as I tried to stop it, I had a nice cry after we talked. I miss him so much. Thankfully it's not paralizing like it once was, and after my cry I was fine. I have a feeling we are going to learn a lot about eachother.
I asked a simple question yesterday on a forum and ended unleashing some sort of perverse monster. I learned way more about this group of women than I ever expected. In the process I learned that compared to most of them..I'm really really freaky. Not a bad thing in my book.
There is really nothing else to report. At least, nothing I care to report. I hope to get a lot of cleaning done this weekend and if it stops raining, I need to go for a walk or something. Really need to get my son out of this house. I was actually tempted to get him outside in the rain today. I hope it stops soon.