I'm going to start this by saying this. Yes I know it's only a month and yes I know it could be worse, so you don't need to say it for me. I just really need to get this off my chest.
My son is not doing well with his daddy being gone. It's throwing me off because he's always been so strong and done so well. It took about 8 months for him to hit meltdown. It didn't even take two days this time. Every little thing has him in tears and he is a lot more tired than usual. He's gone back to being clingy, but that part I can handle. Hopefully he will get better. I don't know why this time is so different for him. I guess it doesn't matter though. It just is. I will do what I can to make him feel better and hopefully won't lose my mind in the meantime. It boils down to the fact that I love my little man with all my heart and seeing him hurting is killing me.
Sometimes being a mom is really interesting. Today it had a heartbreaking moment and a totally uncomfortable yet amusing moment.
Heartbreaking
My husband was running to the shopette to pick up something and my son didn't realize he had already left. When he realized that he was gone, he took off out the door screaming "Daddy wait for me!" My husband was already well down the road and didn't see him. My son took off down the road screaming and crying for him to stop. I was behind him yelling for him to stop. He ran all the way into the main street then finally turned around and came towards me, sobbing hysterically. My neighbors came out of their house and some poor woman who was walking her dog just stood there in shock. I don't care what my neighbors thought, but I know my heart was totally breaking.
Let me explain. My husband leaves in the morning for a month and my son thought he was leaving for that this afternoon when he went to the store. That is why he was so hysterical. He didn't think he was coming back. I so don't know how he is going to take it when my husband is really good. Thankfully he is normally gone when my son wakes up in the morning so I'm just going to act like he is just at work then I'll tell him when he gets home from school. There is a chance that my husband will be postponed for another month and I'm sort of hoping that happens because I'm not sure my son is not really ready for this separation. I don't know how to make him ready. He did so well with the other long separations but right now he can't handle a day or two. I guess kids can only take so much. He was so strong while hubby was gone last year that I just assumed it would be the same. Everyone has their breaking point though.
Amusing
My son was going to bed and went to give me a kiss goodnight. He puckered up weird but he likes to give silly kisses so I didn't think anything of it until he didn't want to kiss me on the cheek like normal. He said "no I want one like this" and proceeded to act out a long kiss like his dad would give me. I almost died! We had a conversation about that is how mommies and daddies kiss. I think he got it because he ended up giving me a kiss that "blew up" which was a big smacker on the cheek. It was funny. Having a kid can be so interesting.
I found myself a little depressed today. I know he's only leaving for a month and won't be shot at this time but I don't like the thought of sleeping alone again. It could be worse though. I'll be fine. just one of those days.
Things will be better. After all, tomorrow is another day!
Heartbreaking
My husband was running to the shopette to pick up something and my son didn't realize he had already left. When he realized that he was gone, he took off out the door screaming "Daddy wait for me!" My husband was already well down the road and didn't see him. My son took off down the road screaming and crying for him to stop. I was behind him yelling for him to stop. He ran all the way into the main street then finally turned around and came towards me, sobbing hysterically. My neighbors came out of their house and some poor woman who was walking her dog just stood there in shock. I don't care what my neighbors thought, but I know my heart was totally breaking.
Let me explain. My husband leaves in the morning for a month and my son thought he was leaving for that this afternoon when he went to the store. That is why he was so hysterical. He didn't think he was coming back. I so don't know how he is going to take it when my husband is really good. Thankfully he is normally gone when my son wakes up in the morning so I'm just going to act like he is just at work then I'll tell him when he gets home from school. There is a chance that my husband will be postponed for another month and I'm sort of hoping that happens because I'm not sure my son is not really ready for this separation. I don't know how to make him ready. He did so well with the other long separations but right now he can't handle a day or two. I guess kids can only take so much. He was so strong while hubby was gone last year that I just assumed it would be the same. Everyone has their breaking point though.
Amusing
My son was going to bed and went to give me a kiss goodnight. He puckered up weird but he likes to give silly kisses so I didn't think anything of it until he didn't want to kiss me on the cheek like normal. He said "no I want one like this" and proceeded to act out a long kiss like his dad would give me. I almost died! We had a conversation about that is how mommies and daddies kiss. I think he got it because he ended up giving me a kiss that "blew up" which was a big smacker on the cheek. It was funny. Having a kid can be so interesting.
I found myself a little depressed today. I know he's only leaving for a month and won't be shot at this time but I don't like the thought of sleeping alone again. It could be worse though. I'll be fine. just one of those days.
Things will be better. After all, tomorrow is another day!
Murphy's Law. Every time your husband is about to leave or has just left, someone will get sick or something will break down. Guess who's feeling like they are coming down with something? Yep. That would be me. UGH!!!
Sorry I haven't been blogging much, not that I think anyone notices. I have started another blog to deal with the weight loss stuff and have put a few in there, but I just haven't had so much to say.
I love lazy Sundays. We all slept until almost 10 this morning. My son went to bed very late last night so we were all glad for the sleep in. Yesterday was wonderful as well. My sister and her guy came over and we watched a movie and played games. It was a lot of fun.
Today is really our last family day for a while. Hubby leaves this week for a month. I'm ok with it. I wish he didn't have to go just now but at least he will be getting it over and done with. He told me yesterday that there is a chance he might not have to go. A unit just returned from Iraq and wanted their people to go. They put him on a waiting list that is done by rank and time in rank. Let's just say he's on the bottom of that list. I wish he hadn't told me, but I am telling myself he's going. It's just easier that way.
Ok I'm off to find something fun to do. Hope everyone is having a great weekend.
I love lazy Sundays. We all slept until almost 10 this morning. My son went to bed very late last night so we were all glad for the sleep in. Yesterday was wonderful as well. My sister and her guy came over and we watched a movie and played games. It was a lot of fun.
Today is really our last family day for a while. Hubby leaves this week for a month. I'm ok with it. I wish he didn't have to go just now but at least he will be getting it over and done with. He told me yesterday that there is a chance he might not have to go. A unit just returned from Iraq and wanted their people to go. They put him on a waiting list that is done by rank and time in rank. Let's just say he's on the bottom of that list. I wish he hadn't told me, but I am telling myself he's going. It's just easier that way.
Ok I'm off to find something fun to do. Hope everyone is having a great weekend.
I finally got up the nerve and opened a shop on cafepress.com. I am nervous but excited. I really want it to do well. Right now I don't have a lot of images, but that will change over time. I really hope this doesn't totally tank!
Palekaiko
Palekaiko
I feel so sick right now. I don't understand some things. I just really don't understand. Why does God let horrible things happen to kids. Someone I know through another website has found out that her daughter has a tumor that has a very low rate of survival no matter what she choses. I couldn't imagine being in her shoes. I panic when I try to do so. This is every mother's worst nightmare. I know I should be able to say that God has a reason for this, but I can't fathom what it could be. I just don't know what to think. I'm gonna go cry now.
It's good to be home, though I think I could have handled another day or two at the resort. Hubby had duty today, so we had to come home.
My son and I spent several hours in the pool yesterday afternoon and I have the sunburn to show for it. I never used to burn, but this Hawaii sun can be brutal. I don't know how I forget that. The pools at the resort were so awesome! They had three. One was your standard huge pool that goes from 3.5 feet to 8 or whatever. Nothing special there except for the ocean view. It was the other two that I absolutely loved. You can see them here. What you can't see in the picture is the fact that the top pool has a huge waterfall or that some of the sides of the pool have seating. The top pool is only about 4 and a half feet deep and the water was the perfect temperature. At the far end is a small rocky waterfall that falls down to the kiddie pool. My son absolutely had a blast playing in there. He didn't have to have water wings so he could jump around. It also has seating inside the pool on one side. It wasn't unusual to see parents in the pool with heir kids sitting beneath the fall and relaxing. It was the perfect size for the water to feel like a massage.
It's a little rainy outside today so I guess we will be relaxing in the house. We really need to hit the commissary later. I honestly feel incredibly lazy today. I guess it's time to shake off the sleepiness.
My son and I spent several hours in the pool yesterday afternoon and I have the sunburn to show for it. I never used to burn, but this Hawaii sun can be brutal. I don't know how I forget that. The pools at the resort were so awesome! They had three. One was your standard huge pool that goes from 3.5 feet to 8 or whatever. Nothing special there except for the ocean view. It was the other two that I absolutely loved. You can see them here. What you can't see in the picture is the fact that the top pool has a huge waterfall or that some of the sides of the pool have seating. The top pool is only about 4 and a half feet deep and the water was the perfect temperature. At the far end is a small rocky waterfall that falls down to the kiddie pool. My son absolutely had a blast playing in there. He didn't have to have water wings so he could jump around. It also has seating inside the pool on one side. It wasn't unusual to see parents in the pool with heir kids sitting beneath the fall and relaxing. It was the perfect size for the water to feel like a massage.
It's a little rainy outside today so I guess we will be relaxing in the house. We really need to hit the commissary later. I honestly feel incredibly lazy today. I guess it's time to shake off the sleepiness.
Gee, I'm blogging a lot today. We came back from dinner to find our room had been cleaned and our beds turned down. I found this paper on it that had different Hawaiian words and a few suggestions for tomorrow. At the bottom of the page it says
This is a saying that I need to live by right now. I'm taking this paper home and hanging it up on my fridge. I might even go as far as framing the quote. I have a lot of changes headed my way, but if any of it is going to be successful,I have to get rid of the bad habits.
Gotta love that Hawaiian wisdom.
E wahi ka makaha l pi'l ka l'a
Break the pond gate so the fish can get in.
(Break away from bad habits, then good can enter your life.)
This is a saying that I need to live by right now. I'm taking this paper home and hanging it up on my fridge. I might even go as far as framing the quote. I have a lot of changes headed my way, but if any of it is going to be successful,I have to get rid of the bad habits.
Gotta love that Hawaiian wisdom.
There was no lie to the statement "The bigger they are, the harder they fall." My husband is about the most gentle person I know, but he has a way of accidentally injuring me. The latest of these injuries will be smarting for days to come.
He was laying on his stomach on one of the beds and I jumped on his back and started tickling him. He decided his only choice was to turn sideways and forcefully throw me off his back. I'm not small so, when he did it, I fell hard. At the moment the only pain was the shoe logged up my butt and I twisted my back a little. An hour later almost everything on my left side hurts. My arm is the worst. Hopefully it will just be one of those overnight aches. This poor arm has seen so many accidental injuries, it's a wonder I still have one.
Little man and the hubby are at the pool. I was out there for a bit but it's just too cool for me. I will wait patiently for them to head back up. Hope everyone is having a good night!
He was laying on his stomach on one of the beds and I jumped on his back and started tickling him. He decided his only choice was to turn sideways and forcefully throw me off his back. I'm not small so, when he did it, I fell hard. At the moment the only pain was the shoe logged up my butt and I twisted my back a little. An hour later almost everything on my left side hurts. My arm is the worst. Hopefully it will just be one of those overnight aches. This poor arm has seen so many accidental injuries, it's a wonder I still have one.
Little man and the hubby are at the pool. I was out there for a bit but it's just too cool for me. I will wait patiently for them to head back up. Hope everyone is having a good night!
And I'd like to think I'm sitting in it right now. We are at the Turtle Bay Resort again. This time it's for a marriage retreat that my husband has to work at. Definitely some perks to being a Chaplain's Assistant's wife. We brought our son this time and it has been an interesting experience for him. I have to admit that his morning was pretty boring, but he managed to keep himself entertained with legos and my computer. I was busy helping my hubby sign people in while he was making last minute arrangments. I really had a lot of fun.
After the meeting started, my son and I went and checked in and headed up to the room. Last time we had a great view, but this time it's AMAZING!!! I didn't bring my camera, but I will try to get a picture with my phone. We at a little something and were about to go to the pool when it started pouring rain. My son settled into the bed and watched cartoons while waiting for it to stop. About the time I noticed it had stopped raining, he was asleep. I figure a nap won't hurt him and we can take him to the pool when he wakes up. It honestly is a little cool to be in the water. We have the window open and the breeze is fierce. It's great though. The ocean is so relaxing. This is definitely my idea of paradise.
After the meeting started, my son and I went and checked in and headed up to the room. Last time we had a great view, but this time it's AMAZING!!! I didn't bring my camera, but I will try to get a picture with my phone. We at a little something and were about to go to the pool when it started pouring rain. My son settled into the bed and watched cartoons while waiting for it to stop. About the time I noticed it had stopped raining, he was asleep. I figure a nap won't hurt him and we can take him to the pool when he wakes up. It honestly is a little cool to be in the water. We have the window open and the breeze is fierce. It's great though. The ocean is so relaxing. This is definitely my idea of paradise.
It is so Monday. I wake up at 5:49 and realize my husband is still in bed and if he doesn't get up he's going to be late for PT. He leaves and I rest a little longer then get up to get my son ready. I had set out everything but his shoes last night so he gets dressed and has some breakfast. I put some clothes on and then start looking for his shoes. Now I was sure I knew where they were, but I was sadly mistaken. I looked everywhere! I moved furniture and tore up rooms and ended up only finding one. Of course the only other pair that are closed toe and fit him are in the trunk of the car that my husband has. UGH!
On an interesting note, hubby comes home and tells me that the CPT asked if I wanted to be a FRG (family readiness group) leader. I was really flattered but I have only been a military wife for two years and, although I have done deployment, it was with very little time spent with the FRG. I would have no idea about how to lead and I think that someone else would be much better suited. I did tell him to let the CPT know I would be happy to help out in any way I could. At least it made me smile. Hopefully this means the day is getting better.
On an interesting note, hubby comes home and tells me that the CPT asked if I wanted to be a FRG (family readiness group) leader. I was really flattered but I have only been a military wife for two years and, although I have done deployment, it was with very little time spent with the FRG. I would have no idea about how to lead and I think that someone else would be much better suited. I did tell him to let the CPT know I would be happy to help out in any way I could. At least it made me smile. Hopefully this means the day is getting better.
Yesterday we went outside to eat dinner because the oven had made the house entirely too hot. Sitting out there we noticed the sky looked very interesting. It looked like it was on fire. One of the most amazing skies I've seen since Turtle Bay. There is one issue that hubby and I can't agree on. I had taken two pictures that are almost identical except that one is much darker than the other. I didn't have the settings right at first. He likes the darker one, but I like the one that is like it really was. I think it would be interesting to see which one you guys like better. Feel free to let me know.
We are watching a movie and I am just so over it. It's very old and annoying. Ok so maybe I'm just easily annoyed right now. I just have to say I am so glad that movies are better made now.
Today was mostly a good day. It didn't go the way we planned, but it still was nice. We had planned to get up in the morning and go to this family fun fest they were having. We had to go by my husband's office first because he had something to take care of that required his computer. Well the network was down so he couldn't do it, but we got his office straightened up. He felt bad but I know he really never has time to do it and we had time so I didn't mind helping. We left there and headed to the fun thing and I was so disgusted when we got there. The flyer made it look like it was going to be this free event that was fun for everyone. I assumed you would have to pay for food because that is usually fund raising or something, but this was ridiculous. You had to buy tickets to do anything. The tickets were 50 cents a piece. Ok so no big deal if the games and such only cost one ticket or something like that. Oh no! They had a moon bounce type thing. The ones that you climb up then slide down. The line for it was forever long so you know they weren't getting much time on it per kid. We asked how much it was and found out it was 3 dollars to have a turn on it. 3 FREAKING DOLLARS!!!!!!!
Now if I had known it was going to be like that, we never would have set foot there. I mean normally it would have been a fun thing we do once in a while, but we so didn't have the money to waste. Instead we went and picked him up a snack that was cheaper and he loved it as much. We promised him a trip to the playground and I think he had way more fun there. He wasn't even upset that he didn't get to do what he originally wanted, but I was. At least I know for next year.
Ok movie is over and it was extremely anticlimactic. I won't even go into the cheesy musical score. The Easter bunny has come and put my son's basket out for him. I think maybe I'll try to get some sleep now.
Today was mostly a good day. It didn't go the way we planned, but it still was nice. We had planned to get up in the morning and go to this family fun fest they were having. We had to go by my husband's office first because he had something to take care of that required his computer. Well the network was down so he couldn't do it, but we got his office straightened up. He felt bad but I know he really never has time to do it and we had time so I didn't mind helping. We left there and headed to the fun thing and I was so disgusted when we got there. The flyer made it look like it was going to be this free event that was fun for everyone. I assumed you would have to pay for food because that is usually fund raising or something, but this was ridiculous. You had to buy tickets to do anything. The tickets were 50 cents a piece. Ok so no big deal if the games and such only cost one ticket or something like that. Oh no! They had a moon bounce type thing. The ones that you climb up then slide down. The line for it was forever long so you know they weren't getting much time on it per kid. We asked how much it was and found out it was 3 dollars to have a turn on it. 3 FREAKING DOLLARS!!!!!!!
Now if I had known it was going to be like that, we never would have set foot there. I mean normally it would have been a fun thing we do once in a while, but we so didn't have the money to waste. Instead we went and picked him up a snack that was cheaper and he loved it as much. We promised him a trip to the playground and I think he had way more fun there. He wasn't even upset that he didn't get to do what he originally wanted, but I was. At least I know for next year.
Ok movie is over and it was extremely anticlimactic. I won't even go into the cheesy musical score. The Easter bunny has come and put my son's basket out for him. I think maybe I'll try to get some sleep now.
It so feels like Saturday today. Hubby is off today and let me sleep way too late. I won't lie, it was nice to not get up so early. We are just having a fun day relaxing and goofing off. I need to get my butt in gear and get ready. We really need to hit the commissary. I also really need to get some things done but I'm just loving this.
The last part of last week was crazy busy but absolutely wonderful at the same time. My sister had my son from late Wednesday until Saturday around noon. I missed him a little but it was a wonderful break for my husband and I.
Thursday and Friday we spent the day at the Turtle Bay Resort for a marriage retreat. I went into it thinking that it was just going to be nice to have the time together. Really I didn't expect to get too much out of the classes. I ended up learning some good things. One of my favorite parts was when we watched part of a video called "Laugh Your Way to a Better Marriage" by Mark Gungor. This man has some wonderful things to say and puts comedy in it so it's fun at the same time. I highly recommend it to anyone. I learned from him that when men say they are thinking about nothing, they actually probably are thinking about absolutely nothing. This little part that he does to illustrate this made me laugh so hard I was crying. He definitely knows what he is talking about.
Thursday night we were told we had to have a date as our homework. Now to us this entire thing was like a date because we were alone and in such a beautiful place. It was hard for us to think of something to do but I think we managed well enough. First we went up to our room just to check it out. There was nothing spectacular about the room but the view was awesome. We sat on the bed and watched whales jumping out of the water for a while. We also were able to watch a wedding from our balcony. It was so beautiful. After that we went and had our dinner then went for a walk. It was sunset so it was a beautiful walk. My camera batteries were dying so we went to one of the little shops they had and bought new ones then we were going to go upstairs and relax on our balcony. On the way to the elevator we saw a small arcade. Now that might now sound like fun for most people on a date, but for us it is both sentimental and a blast. We stayed in there for a little while and had so much fun. After that we went for another walk in the moonlight then headed upstairs and ended up dancing in the moonlight on the balcony. Not ready to call it a night, we went down to the sundry shop and picked up some snacks and drinks and then went back to the room and watched a movie. It was a great way to end the night.
We met some great couples. I was able to meet one of my husband's roommates from when they were deployed. I didn't care for the guy much when they were there, but he and his wife were pretty great. Apparently he has changed a lot. I'm hoping that we will be able to do more with some of these couples. It would be nice to have friends that aren't single or family.
Friday after the classes were over they did a group vow renewal for those who wanted to take part in it. Nine couples renewed there vows, including us. It was so nice. Right after that we decided to go ahead and come home. We wanted to stop by the house before heading to pick up our son and I'm glad we did. I called my sister and she asked if they could keep my son another night and all of us could go to the zoo the next day. We said yes, of course. After resting for a bit, we went and had a small dinner then came home and crashed.
Saturday we made our first trip to the Honolulu Zoo. We had to park a little bit away from the zoo and on our way to the gate we passed something called "Art on the Zoo Fence." Local artists display and sell art on Saturdays along the zoo fence. It was so great to see the art. I spent a few minutes talking with a photographer who had some amazing work up. He wanted to see my camera and had some good tips for me. My husband was busy trying to find out how you go about getting a spot in this wonderful display. I thought he was asking for himself but apparently he thinks I should get some of my photography together and sell it. I don't know that I'm there yet, but if I ever decide to do so, I think that would be a good way to start.
The zoo was really nice. It wasn't too hot and there were times I was able to forget I was in such a busy city. I love that along with the animals they had also put different plants and trees on display. It was so great to see the variety. Some of the habitats made me less than happy. They could have been better cared for. Hopefully this is something they are working to improve.
We ended the day at my sister's house with some pizza and swimming. It was a wonderful three days but it left me very tired and ready for a day to just relax. I'll try and post some of my favorite pictures a little later.
Thursday and Friday we spent the day at the Turtle Bay Resort for a marriage retreat. I went into it thinking that it was just going to be nice to have the time together. Really I didn't expect to get too much out of the classes. I ended up learning some good things. One of my favorite parts was when we watched part of a video called "Laugh Your Way to a Better Marriage" by Mark Gungor. This man has some wonderful things to say and puts comedy in it so it's fun at the same time. I highly recommend it to anyone. I learned from him that when men say they are thinking about nothing, they actually probably are thinking about absolutely nothing. This little part that he does to illustrate this made me laugh so hard I was crying. He definitely knows what he is talking about.
Thursday night we were told we had to have a date as our homework. Now to us this entire thing was like a date because we were alone and in such a beautiful place. It was hard for us to think of something to do but I think we managed well enough. First we went up to our room just to check it out. There was nothing spectacular about the room but the view was awesome. We sat on the bed and watched whales jumping out of the water for a while. We also were able to watch a wedding from our balcony. It was so beautiful. After that we went and had our dinner then went for a walk. It was sunset so it was a beautiful walk. My camera batteries were dying so we went to one of the little shops they had and bought new ones then we were going to go upstairs and relax on our balcony. On the way to the elevator we saw a small arcade. Now that might now sound like fun for most people on a date, but for us it is both sentimental and a blast. We stayed in there for a little while and had so much fun. After that we went for another walk in the moonlight then headed upstairs and ended up dancing in the moonlight on the balcony. Not ready to call it a night, we went down to the sundry shop and picked up some snacks and drinks and then went back to the room and watched a movie. It was a great way to end the night.
We met some great couples. I was able to meet one of my husband's roommates from when they were deployed. I didn't care for the guy much when they were there, but he and his wife were pretty great. Apparently he has changed a lot. I'm hoping that we will be able to do more with some of these couples. It would be nice to have friends that aren't single or family.
Friday after the classes were over they did a group vow renewal for those who wanted to take part in it. Nine couples renewed there vows, including us. It was so nice. Right after that we decided to go ahead and come home. We wanted to stop by the house before heading to pick up our son and I'm glad we did. I called my sister and she asked if they could keep my son another night and all of us could go to the zoo the next day. We said yes, of course. After resting for a bit, we went and had a small dinner then came home and crashed.
Saturday we made our first trip to the Honolulu Zoo. We had to park a little bit away from the zoo and on our way to the gate we passed something called "Art on the Zoo Fence." Local artists display and sell art on Saturdays along the zoo fence. It was so great to see the art. I spent a few minutes talking with a photographer who had some amazing work up. He wanted to see my camera and had some good tips for me. My husband was busy trying to find out how you go about getting a spot in this wonderful display. I thought he was asking for himself but apparently he thinks I should get some of my photography together and sell it. I don't know that I'm there yet, but if I ever decide to do so, I think that would be a good way to start.
The zoo was really nice. It wasn't too hot and there were times I was able to forget I was in such a busy city. I love that along with the animals they had also put different plants and trees on display. It was so great to see the variety. Some of the habitats made me less than happy. They could have been better cared for. Hopefully this is something they are working to improve.
We ended the day at my sister's house with some pizza and swimming. It was a wonderful three days but it left me very tired and ready for a day to just relax. I'll try and post some of my favorite pictures a little later.