There is so much going on that I have moments where I'm sure my head will explode. Right now I crave a dark quiet room and a clear mind. I could get the room easy enough, but I don't want to be alone with my thoughts.
We are getting really close to deployment and are staying really busy. We had a wonderful luncheon today put on by the Unit Ministry Team. It was just a way for them to show their support to the ones in their group deploying. It was a really nice thing for them to do.
All of the emotions from the upcoming seperation and my doctors visits have me crying a lot. Yesterday I found something out that had me crying even harder. A very good friend of mine from SC found out yesterday that her youngest son has lukemia. He is 2 1/2 and is a total sweetheart. My friend is due to deliver her 4th just before Christmas and we are hoping the stress doesn't effect her and the baby too much. I hate being so far away and not being able to help out. I am praying though and that can go a long way. I still believe miracles can happen.
Today was my son's 5th birthday. I can't believe my baby is already 5. I won't say it seems like yesterday I was having him, but it doesn't seem like it was 5 years ago. We are not really celebrating until Friday. We wanted to be able to devote more time to his birthday than just a few hours in the evening. Sunday we will be celebrating an early christmas. there looks to be a lot of celebrating this weekend. Good thing I'm finally starting to get in the Christmas spirit a little more.
Today has been very emotional for me, so much more than I thought it would be. We had decided a week or two ago that I would just cook some gumbo because my husband didn't want turkey and I didn't really want all the leftovers. I was fine with it and really was fine with everything. Today I woke up and came downstairs doing my usual online morning routine and a mouse ran across the room. I hate mice!!! I can handle any bug you throw my way but keep rodents away. It ran out the open door we think so I'm ok now, but for some reason that little mouse in my house made me break down sobbing. In about two seconds I went from being perfectly fine to extremely homesick and wanting to go back to SC. If I'm this upset today, I can't even imagine how I'm going to deal with Christmas. At least today my husband was home.
I had to go this afternoon to get my bandages changed and they told me to take a pain pill ahead of time because it could be a painful process. Because of this, I have spent the entire day doped up. One pill that is only supposed to last 4 hours or so and I'm still dragging. I ended up not cooking the gumbo because I don't feel like eating and honestly don't have the strength. I hate medicine. I think tomorrow I'm going to suck it up and just hurt a little. We will see.
A few minutes before writing this I was reading a friend of mine's blog and I was so amazed at how much in love she and her husband are. I guess the amazing part is that they have not been together in at least a year and seem so much in tune with what each other needs and so much about each other. It is so awesome to know that is possible. I really needed that today.
Even though it was an emotional day it helped me to see just how much I am truly thankful for. I am thankful for my wonderful husband who followed me around all afternoon making sure I didn't land on my face or break anything. I am thankful for my son who has behaved two days in a row and who makes me smile so much just by looking at me. I know he will be my rock over the next year. I am so thankful for my family that is far away, but still close in heart. I am also thankful for my friends who have kept me in their thoughts and prayers throughout the entire biopsy/result process and in getting ready with the upcoming deployment. I am thankful that I have wonderful medical coverage. I am thankful that I have a house to be upset about a mouse invading, some of my family members lost that with the hurricane. I hope that everyone was able to find at least one thing to be thankful for today. Sometimes we have to look extra hard, but it's there.
Ok so last night I went to ER because the site of that breast biopsy I mentioned a few posts ago was looking bad. My poor husband had been up since 3 that morning and this was about 11 pm and he was ready for sleep but we piled my son in the car and headed down to the hospital. It takes about 45 min to get there. We haven't figured out the faster way yet. I know there has to be one though. Anyway, back to the point..and I promise there is one. By the time we got to the hospital my son was asleep so they dropped me off and parked somewhere and slept in the car while they waited. My husband felt too tired to drive back home. 5 hours later I come out and my son greets me with a very excited "MOMMY!!" He then informs me " Mommy! I slept in the car. It was cool!" Cool is his new word that he is using for everything lately. He then hugged me and started saying very loudly that he had bugs in his ears and needed to go to the doctor. The bugs in his ears is something my dad said to him while playing with him one day...but anyway back to last night. The security guard was looking at us like we were insane but I convinced Gabe he didn't need to go to the doctor and we left. He put his little hand in mine and said "I love you mommy"
Nothing like the innocent heart of a child to make any pain feel that much better. I am so blessed to have him. He truly is my angel!
Nothing like the innocent heart of a child to make any pain feel that much better. I am so blessed to have him. He truly is my angel!
Today I spent most of the day getting ready for the holidays. My hubby took my son to see the movie Chicken Little and I was left at our nearest Walmart to kill the hour finishing my important Christmas Shopping. I had already bought 80% of my presents, so all I had left was a few small things and essentials like wrapping paper. That doesn't sound too bad...right? Well that is what I was thinking at least. I breezed through the first part of my shopping and was down to the last item on my list. Wrapping Paper. I went to the Christmas section in the Garden Center...you know that never made sense to me, but here it does...well about as much as Christmas in the tropics does. Anyway, I forced some Christmas spirit into myself and walked down the aisles smiling at the snowmen and looking for wrapping paper. I found a small box with about 100 rolls of unatractive wrapping paper and figured there had to be more so I moved on. There was no more! Now I am used to Walmarts that have a wall of wrapping paper (no exageration here) so for me to find only this one box was very sickening. Unwilling to pay 5 dollars for a small roll of ugly paper, I decided to just leave. I was able to get some cute paper at the px and happily paid a little more than I normally would.
Now I know you are wondering what the big deal is as it is just wrapping paper, but you have to understand that this is what I have found to be typical of this walmart. Now if you want a movie or toy then you will have no trouble finding them and that is great, but it is virtually impossible to find anything else. It is so unlike any other Walmart I have ever been in. Since there are only two on the island, it is always extremely busy and that makes it even harder to get what you need. Half of the time I get frustrated and end up leaving without at least one thing I needed. The other walmart is nicer and a bit less crowded but it is also a little more out of the way. I am thinking we will be trying shopping there from now on though, just to see if it is any better. I have honestly begun to consider giving up on walmart all together..at least while we are on the island.
After shopping we went to McDonalds. That was my son's choice and I was fine with it as this was all about making family memories for him. So far I have been really unimpressed by the fast food restaurants here except the one on post. They are ususally old and run down looking and the service and food are less than impressive. This one was actually newer and the service was great. It looked like they had just finished a rush so it was not as clean as I would have wanted it to be, but they were cleaning it while we were there. My son had fun and that was really all that mattered.
The rest of the day was uneventful. Off to the px for wrapping paper and then home to wrap gifts. My husband dropped me off at the px only to come in a few minutes later with my son. I asked him what he needed and he said "you won't be able to buy anything without my card" he was refering to his Military ID card that you have to show when shopping on post. I have one as well so I was confused. I told him that I had mine and he was like "you have to have mine don't you." I was thinking he had hit his head or something because I've shopped without him before, but I was nice enough and asked him what he thought I was going to do for the year he was gone? After having a duh moment he went back to the car and that was that...where his brain was for those few moments, I may never know.
Well this was sort of long and yes this was one of my rambles. I warn you, I do it fairly often. If you made it to the end, then you are either very bored or just don't mind a ramble.
Now I know you are wondering what the big deal is as it is just wrapping paper, but you have to understand that this is what I have found to be typical of this walmart. Now if you want a movie or toy then you will have no trouble finding them and that is great, but it is virtually impossible to find anything else. It is so unlike any other Walmart I have ever been in. Since there are only two on the island, it is always extremely busy and that makes it even harder to get what you need. Half of the time I get frustrated and end up leaving without at least one thing I needed. The other walmart is nicer and a bit less crowded but it is also a little more out of the way. I am thinking we will be trying shopping there from now on though, just to see if it is any better. I have honestly begun to consider giving up on walmart all together..at least while we are on the island.
After shopping we went to McDonalds. That was my son's choice and I was fine with it as this was all about making family memories for him. So far I have been really unimpressed by the fast food restaurants here except the one on post. They are ususally old and run down looking and the service and food are less than impressive. This one was actually newer and the service was great. It looked like they had just finished a rush so it was not as clean as I would have wanted it to be, but they were cleaning it while we were there. My son had fun and that was really all that mattered.
The rest of the day was uneventful. Off to the px for wrapping paper and then home to wrap gifts. My husband dropped me off at the px only to come in a few minutes later with my son. I asked him what he needed and he said "you won't be able to buy anything without my card" he was refering to his Military ID card that you have to show when shopping on post. I have one as well so I was confused. I told him that I had mine and he was like "you have to have mine don't you." I was thinking he had hit his head or something because I've shopped without him before, but I was nice enough and asked him what he thought I was going to do for the year he was gone? After having a duh moment he went back to the car and that was that...where his brain was for those few moments, I may never know.
Well this was sort of long and yes this was one of my rambles. I warn you, I do it fairly often. If you made it to the end, then you are either very bored or just don't mind a ramble.
I've never been so glad that a weekend was over! I was looking forward to this past weekend because it was a four day weekend. Unfortunatly there was a loss in my husband's unit and he had to work this weekend. It was such an emotional weekend with all of that.
Yesterday I had a breast biopsy. It was a needle biopsy, which I suppose is better than a regular, but it was certainly not any more enjoyable. I think the worst part is that it will likely be at least a week before I get any results. Have I ever mentioned that I'm not so good at waiting?
Ok so the plans for the week are that i'm not making any. My husband has a full week at work and I get to do all that housework and stuff. Isn't my life so exciting!
Thanksgiving is next week, but somehow all the sunshine and warmth makes it really hard to remember that. It is going to be so odd getting Christmas decorations up in this weather. I guess we will have fun anyway. After all isn't Christmas in the heart or something like that?
Yesterday I had a breast biopsy. It was a needle biopsy, which I suppose is better than a regular, but it was certainly not any more enjoyable. I think the worst part is that it will likely be at least a week before I get any results. Have I ever mentioned that I'm not so good at waiting?
Ok so the plans for the week are that i'm not making any. My husband has a full week at work and I get to do all that housework and stuff. Isn't my life so exciting!
Thanksgiving is next week, but somehow all the sunshine and warmth makes it really hard to remember that. It is going to be so odd getting Christmas decorations up in this weather. I guess we will have fun anyway. After all isn't Christmas in the heart or something like that?
I guess you can tell I'm easily amused.
What is a Terra Knife??? Anyone?
| Your Superhero Profile |
 Your Superhero Name is The Jade Dusk Your Superpower is Complements Your Weakness is Sunlight Your Weapon is Your Terra Knife Your Mode of Transportation is Broom |
What is a Terra Knife??? Anyone?
| You Are a Strawberry Daiquiri |
 You're a fun, playful drinker who loves to party. You may get totally wasted, but you're always a happy drunk! |
| You Are 60% Weird |
 You're so weird, you think you're *totally* normal. Right? But you wig out even the biggest of circus freaks! |
| Your Heart Is Pink |
 In relationships, you like to play innocent - even though you aren't. Each time you fall in love, it's like falling for the first time. Your flirting style: Coy Your lucky first date: Picnic in the park Your dream lover: Is both caring and dominant What you bring to relationships: Romance |
| Gummy Bears |
 You may be smooshie and taste unnatural, but you're so darn cute. |
| You Are 70% "Average American" |
 You are average because you don't make New Year's resolutions. You are not average since you rate your appearance 4 or lower. |
| Your Inner Child Is Surprised |
 You see many things through the eyes of a child. Meaning, you're rarely cynical or jaded. You cherish all of the details in life. Easily fascinated, you enjoy experiencing new things. |
My favorite thing about Hawaii so far has to be the rainbows. Never in my life have I seen rainbows as beautiful as the ones here. They are so full of color that it seems like you could reach out and touch them. We saw one on the way home today. It was so big and bright that we could see it from Walmart all the way back to our home some 20 min later. No matter which direction we turned, it was always there. Sometimes brighter than others. Sometimes hidden by trees, but always there. Almost as if it was waiting there to brighten my day. Now when I'm down I look for a rainbow. You never know when one might just be around the corner.
I was filling out my profile and I got the part where it asks for your industry and job title. I couldn't help but wonder what my job title should be. I mean officially it is something like stay at home mom or homemaker..But honestly there is so much more there that it is hard to put it all in one phrase. At least for me. I'm sure someone out there could come out with the perfect one. Just not me.
Anyway...Welcome to my blog. In it you will be able to see what it is like to be "Just simply Jen" It's not always a pretty sight but at least it's me.
Anyway...Welcome to my blog. In it you will be able to see what it is like to be "Just simply Jen" It's not always a pretty sight but at least it's me.