Just Simply Jen

As good of a day as I had, my night is that bad. I guess I don't really have anything to complain about. I mean I've had a few tough muscle spasms, but that is something i'm getting used to. It's just that as the darkness came, so did the lonliness. I sit here now unable to sleep and aching for him. Ache probably isn't strong enough. I hurt. I feel broken and lost without him. I promised myself a long time ago that I would never feel this way about a man. I had no idea then that I would love someone so much that I couldn't help but feel this way without him. Call me pathetic if you will, but it's how I feel. It doesn't help that the night before he left he told me that he was leaving half of his heart here. I know he took mine with him.
Now I'll just stay curled up in the corner of our couch and pray that sleep comes before I give into the desire to gorge on junk food.